Thursday, 28 July 2016

Review: A Brief History of Time

Hi all! I’ve just finished A Brief History of Time by Stephen Hawking, which I started back in April or May but put down by about page 20 because I just couldn’t get through it at the time. But I started reading it again a few days ago and have at last managed to finish it.

In short, it covers an enormous range of important topics in cosmology and quantum physics in only two hundred pages, and thus it is not by any means an easy read. Some topics it covers include redshift, the cosmic microwave background, Friedmann models of the universe, Penrose & Hawking Big Bang proof, the Heisenberg uncertainty principle, Pauli’s exclusion principle, the six flavours and three colours of quarks, the concept of spin, antiparticles, photons and other virtual particles, Z and W bosons, The Higgs particle, the relationship between mass of a particle and range of a force, quark confinement, the effect of high energies on the strong, weak and electromagnetic forces, grand unification energy, CPT symmetry, light cones, and, surprisingly, the Catholic church and its follies in physics.

So … a lot, basically.

The book has some major cons: being a very heavy read, being out of date (published in 1988 originally), and being incredibly bloody frustrating. Now, the frustration comes not from any flaw in the writing, but in Hawking’s information on the latest theories in physics (well, in 1988) which unfortunately were not at all to my taste. Heisenberg uncertainty and the finite speed of light and wave-particle duality and the idea of force-carrying particles all deeply annoy me, even though they’re well-established. I miss the times when physics wasn’t completely counter-intuitive.

Presumably I’ll get more used to these ideas once I’m studying Physics in college this September, but in a way I suppose my scepticism is good, because it lets me look at the evidence from scratch(ish) and come to conclusions rather than just being brought up with the idea of string theory etc. It means I’m more likely to have fresh perspectives on it (and also more likely to find out that, oops, someone already thought of that thirty years ago).

Hawking was quite witty throughout the book, and I especially liked his account of a conference held in the Vatican for the world’s leading cosmologists, in which the Pope told the cosmologists that it was alright to study what happened after the Big Bang, but that they shouldn’t meddle in understanding the Big Bang itself because that was God’s work. You’d think the Catholic Church would have learned with Galileo not to mess with physics, but clearly not.

I also enjoyed the deeper level of understanding the book gave me of a ton of concepts mentioned briefly in Leaving Cert Chemistry – an explanation of the Heisenberg Uncertainty Principle, for example. In LC Chem, we learned “The Heisenberg uncertainty principle states that it is impossible to determine at the same time the exact position and velocity of an electron”, but in A Brief History of Time Hawking explains that the more precisely you know the position, the less precisely you know the velocity, because you have to use a quantum of light to “see” the position and that disturbs the electron, changing its velocity.

The death of scientific determinism saddens me, even though it happened a hundred years ago. Einstein clearly felt similarly, with “God does not play dice” – it’s so disappointing to spend thousands of years slowly understanding the world and then hit up against this insurmountable physical barrier, that doesn’t care how smart you are or how good your instrument is. I’m very frustrated by the idea that there are some things you just can’t know, and honestly I haven’t yet accepted it (or particle-wave duality).

Another thing that frustrates me is how Physics in some ways seems to be doing the annoying that biology does, which is just classifying things. Dear Physics: please keep answering the ‘why’s. I didn’t know I’d grow up and want to be a physicist, but I did know I spent most of my waking hours playing the why game, and I don’t want that to stop.

Also: UNIFYING FORCES. I enjoyed reading about the grand unification energy, which would be a high energy at which the strength of the strong nuclear, weak nuclear and electromagnetic forces is the same, because the strong force is weaker at high energies while the weak and electromagnetic forces are stronger. But yes, hopefully gravity can get in on the game.

I’m still waiting for the theory of everything, and by waiting I mean starting out on my journey of learning physics properly so I can contribute and understand the universe. I hope this grand theory is discovered in my lifetime, and that I can have a part in it.

Final thoughts: space. It’s cool.


Sunday, 24 July 2016

A Day of 3 Festivals (sorta)


Hi all! This is a strange summer, I must admit, but at least some things are happening this week. I spent yesterday at Dublin Maker and a festival in Swords and (very briefly) saw a festival in Malahide, all while hanging out with some nerds (Kate, Paddy and Anthony).

Dublin Maker was cool, although sadly I couldn't stay very long. I did get to make a rocket in Minecraft by painting with a physical paintbrush onto a circuit board, and saw Vanessa of Echoing STEM and Laura, who I first met as a fellow Stemettes panellist in November and saw again at Inspirefest. At the paintbrush-Minecraft-dots activity I got talking to Andrew (Vanessa introduced him as a Raspberry Pi friend of Amy-from-Outbox's), who was cool and found out that Amy will be in the country soon, so that's cool. There was a duo onstage playing country music with a double bass and an electric guitar, which was definitely a new experience. Unfortunately I didn't get to see the modular origami again, but that was so cool at Inspirefest and I'm glad I got to talk to Jennifer (who makes these amazing craft pieces) then. 


After an hour or two, Kate and I went to the Swords festival and climbed up the spiral staircase of a reconstructed castle. Now, I have a spiral staircase at home, so I thought I was used to them, but there were some important differences: (a) my staircase is made of metal, not half-eroded stone (b) there's free space around my staircase, rather than very very close walls. Both of those factors made descending the stone spiral staircase a rather precarious task, especially with a ukulele in hand. Managed, though! Kate and I enjoyed seeing the tremendously sophisticated apparatus people used to use as a toilet (a raised wooden board with a circular hole cut in it) and sitting at what was presumably once a royal dining table.

Overall, not the most impressive castle, but pretty cool nonetheless. 

The rest of the festival seemed to be made up of a ton of bouncy castles. Like, a ridiculous amount of bouncy castles, as if a bouncy castle convention had been kidnapped by the festival. There was also some pretty good music with a cute girl fronting the band.


When we were done with the festival, I visited the famous JC's for the first time and then we got a lift back to her house and watched some stand-up comedy. I showed her Bo Burnham's second special, Make Happy, which I recommend but only if you've watched his first special, what. Make Happy is very good, but it's funny in a depressing way, whereas what. is just straight-up funny and won't leave your emotions in a mess afterwards.

It was awesome spending time with Kate, especially since we've both been busy lately. But all good things come to an end and so I hopped onto an incredibly packed train and read about thirty pages of A Brief History of Time by Stephen Hawking until it was time to get off.

Pretty good! Next blog posts will be about my Debs, the pros and cons of starting your career young, aphantasia, and impostor syndrome. Probably.

Thursday, 21 July 2016

Review: Demon Road by Derek Landy

Author: Derek Landy
Publisher: HarperCollins
Source: Borrowed 
Pages: 507
Reader Experience: *****
Technical Rating: ****

Blurb: Full of Landy’s trademark wit, action and razor sharp dialogue, DEMON ROAD kicks off with a shocking opener and never lets up the pace in an epic road-trip across the supernatural landscape of America. Killer cars, vampires, undead serial killers: they’re all here. And the demons? Well, that’s where Amber comes in...Sixteen years old, smart and spirited, she’s just a normal American teenager until the lies are torn away and the demons reveal themselves.

Forced to go on the run, she hurtles from one threat to another, revealing a tapestry of terror woven into the very fabric of her life. Her only chance rests with her fellow travellers, who are not at all what they appear to be…
 


Demon Road is special, because I haven't had the attention span/time to finish a book for months, but yesterday I picked this up and was gripped by the very first line and carried through all 507 pages by the relentless pacing in about 5 hours. 

Seriously. Really fantastic. I don't know how much of that was the love I already have for Derek's writing thanks to Skulduggery Pleasant or my joy at finally getting into a book again after months, but I just really really enjoyed the experience of blasting through Demon Road

(I'm very out of practise with this whole book reviewing lark. Also, I should really get back into Netgalley). 

Here's what I loved:

Dialogue: Derek has a gift for dialogue that I've never seen in anyone else's writing (look, if his ego hasn't knocked his head off yet it never will). It's just hilarious - very reminiscent of Skulduggery Pleasant in this book, but I wasn't complaining because I love that. The sarcasm and snark is constant, even in life-or-death situations, and it's wonderful. The dialogue from Imelda on page 50 is particularly delicious, so look out for that.

Twists: I can't necessarily say I enjoyed this aspect, since I like seeing my characters happy and well, but those twists were masterful and basically taught me not to trust anyone. ANYONE. I can't really talk about this part without spoilers but I will tell you this: fifteen minutes after I finished the book, my legs were still shaking. What adrenaline.

No romance: I like Derek's approach to romance, both in Skulduggery and here. He diverges from average YA fare by, in Skulduggery, showing both the breakdown of a normal teenage relationship (these things happen) and an unhealthy relationship. Here, the main character just isn't interested in a relationship - and while I like romance when it's subtle and done right, I liked that there was no distracting romantic subplot here. 

Imelda: I really liked Imelda and her secret, but I can say no more without spoilers. Read the book! Read it!

Action: Derek's action is just flawless. He's so knowledgeable about hand-to-hand combat that it makes for an amazing reading experience.


Pacing: The book starts off with a bang - the first sentence is "Twelve hours before Amber Lamont's parents tried to kill her, she was sitting between them in the principal's office, her hands in her lap, stifling all the things she wanted to say."  Way to make an impression! The pacing rarely drops after that so it's definitely a breathless read - I don't know how he succeeds in continuously ratcheting up the tension (I mean, the time limit is definitely a factor) but he's damn good at it.

Stuff I'm conflicted about:

Characters: I'm not sure how I feel about the main characters. I've seen Amber, the protag, criticised for wanting to go back and reason with them after she found out her parents were psychopathic murderers - but honestly I can empathise with this. No matter what your parents have done - to you or to others - they're still your parents, and it's hard to let go of that. That said, I still didn't get much of a sense of her as a person with any standout traits. (PS -  It's so strange reading about sixteen-year-olds doing all these things when I'm seventeen. Am I aging out of YA?!)

 Glen was a bit annoying without being cute enough to make up for it, like Fletcher. Milo was cool but too mysterious - I would've liked to know a lot more about him.

Grey Morality: Amber makes a lot of bad choices and has to do a lot of harm and kill people. As a sixteen-year-old. 

Names: The names aren't awful here, but I do miss the cool/meaningful names from Skulduggery Pleasant

Stuff I dislike:

Repetition - I didn't actually notice this until I read other reviews, but it's true that the plot is just a road trip interrupted by fights. Like, drive, attack, drive, attack, drive attack, with bits of sleuthing mixed in that always turned into fights anyway. I enjoyed it, but it was pretty predictable plot-wise. 

Sequel - Sequels just annoy me in general. Why can't I just get one good standalone YA?! Actually, you know what? It doesn't even have to be a standalone, you can leave some threads untied - but give the first book in the series a goddamn ending. This book had a beginning, middle and climax, but no resolution.

The Inevitable Skulduggery Comparisons
1. There were vampires, although their rules were different from those in SP.
2. The hand-to-hand/gun combat and other action was very similar.
3. The pacing in SP was also fast.
4. Both this and SP are full of wit and sarcasm and hilarity.
5. Repeated characters - Amber is like Valkyrie, Milo is like Skulduggery and Glen is like Fletcher in terms of the roles they play - but they're all flatter, less funny versions of Val, Skul and Fletch.
6. The morality was darker here than it was in SP - in the first few SP books, the morality was pretty white and only got grey later on, but this just gets very dark very fast. 
- morality

Wednesday, 13 July 2016

Hamilton Review

The next post on this blog was supposed to be an in-depth one on aphantasia, but that is a seriously big project so I'm going to go for something slightly less heavy-duty and review Hamilton!

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I've loved Hamilton since my friend Chloe first introduced me to it on the plane back from London in March, so I'm going to attempt to dissect my reasons for that a bit here. I'll go ahead and assume you know what it is already because honestly, you should. If not though, go to Spotify and listen to Hamilton - Original Broadway Cast Recording before reading.

Fun fact: it's so good that I know pretty much the whole thing off by heart.

Author/Composer/Lead: Lin-Manuel Miranda
Rating: 5/5





Overview: Hamilton is an absolute work of genius, and has been deservedly recognised as such by the Tony awards, a MacArthur Genius grant, the Pulitzers and more. In 46 songs over 2 hours and 22 minutes, this revolutionary ;) musical eloquently and passionately tells the life story of Alexander Hamilton, First Treasury Secretary of the United States - in other words, someone I otherwise would never have heard of, even though now I see the name Hamilton everywhere, and not just in relation to the musical. Hamilton is mostly told through rap, with only the occasional song sounding like a conventional musical. It follows Hamilton from his disadvantaged birth (opening lines: "How does a bastard, orphan, son of a whore and a Scotsman, dropped in the middle of a forgotten spot in the Caribbean by providence, impoverished in squalor, somehow defeat a global superpower?"). 



Reasons I Love It
1. Wit

Hamilton is lyrically inspired. It's difficult to express just how witty it is - really, I hope you've listened to it. It's bursting with inventiveness and style and rhythm, and is extremely fast-paced - the fastest verse, which occurs in Guns and Ships, has 6.3 words per second, with a total around 20,000 words sung over 2 hours 22 minutes. It's incredibly dense; there is just so much packed into its runtime. Nevertheless, I'll list a few lines that I love for their lyricism.

My Shot - "I'm past patiently waitin', I'm passionately smashin' every expectation, every action's an act of creation! I'm laughin' in the face of casualties and sorrow - for the first time I'm thinkin' past tomorrow!"

Wait For It - "I am the one thing in life I can control! I am inimitable I am an original."

The World Was Wide Enough - "What is a legacy? It's planting seeds in a garden you never get to see."

Hurricane - "I wrote my way out of hell, I wrote my way to revolution I was louder than the crack in the bell. I wrote Eliza love letters until she fell, I wrote about the constitution and defended it well. And in the face of ignorance and resistance, I wrote financial systems into existence. And when my prayers to god were met with indifference, I picked up a pen, I wrote my own deliverance!"


2. Musical Talent

The beautiful lyrics would be pretty amazing on their own, but it's the music that really takes this over the edge. The beat, for example, is absolutely on point at all times - everyone stays in time and so the musical has this incredible sense of furious pace. 

There are also some gorgeous soaring melodies, particularly in Burn, which is sung by Hamilton's wife Eliza. 

3. Identifying with Hamilton

Aside from how obviously talented everyone in this musical is, I adored it because I deeply identify with Hamilton in many ways. I think you can most easily see why in Non-Stop, Alexander Hamilton, Hurricane, My Shot and Satisfied. 

I really identify with Hamilton's ambition, drive, passion and sharp, engaged mind. If anyone reading is, like me, ambitious as hell, listen to Non-Stop and My Shot to get incredibly fired up and ready to work. 

Non-Stop - "Alexander joins forces with James Madison and John J. to write a series of essays defending the new United States constitution titled the Federalist Papers. The plan was to write a total of 25 essays, the work divided evenly among the three men. In the end, they wrote 85 essays in the span of 6 months. John J. got sick after writing five. James Madison wrote 29. Hamilton wrote THE OTHER FIFTY-ONE." 

Non-Stop - "How do you write while you're running out of time? Write day and night like you're running out of time? Every day you fight like you're running out of time like you're running out of time are you running out of time? How do you write like tomorrow won't arrive? How do you write like you need it to survive? How do you write every second you're alive every second you're alive every second you're alive?" 

My Shot - "I am not throwing away my shot! I am not throwing away my shot! Hey yo I'm just like my country I'm young, scrappy and hungry I am not throwing away my shot! Imma get a scholarship to King's College. I prob'ly shouldn't brag but dag I amaze and astonish. The problem is I got a lot of brains and no polish I gotta holler just to be heard with every word I drop knowledge, I'm a diamond in the rough, a shining piece of coal. Tryna reach my goal, my power of speech unimpeachable. Only nineteen but my mind is older, these New York City streets get colder I shoulder every burden every disadvantage I've learned to manage I don't have a gun to brandish I walk these streets famished. The plan is, to fan this spark into a flame ... "

4. Relationships

There are some really interesting relationships in Hamilton, particularly between Alexander (Hamilton) and Aaron Burr, between Hamilton and the Schuyler Sisters and between the rebels and King George. 

The frenemy relationship between Hamilton and Burr is a huge theme throughout the musical - Burr's songs act as bookends to the whole thing; Burr's life story shares a lot with Hamilton's and yet Hamilton became incredibly successful very fast "even though we started at the very same time, Alexander Hamilton began to climb". So it's this really intense rivalry that's part of the musical's pulse, with this huge contrast between Burr's reticence, charm and hesitation and Hamilton's daring, fiery conviction and certainty, even though they're both highly intelligent and ambitious orphans. Burr ends up killing Hamilton in a duel though he doesn't really want to "this man will NOT make an orphan of my daughter!" and only later realises "the world was wide enough, for both Hamilton and me"

Hamilton also has a really interesting relationship in the musical with Elizabeth and Angelica Schuyler. I think Hamilton and Angelica hit it off immediately, and that ambitious, intelligent Angelica would be the better match for Hamilton, but he ends up marrying Eliza. Throughout his marriage with Eliza, both keep in close contact with Angelica and it's honestly, at least emotionally, more of a triangular relationship. 

The relationship between the American revolutionaries and King George is, of course, fraught. But I just want to draw attention to one of his three songs, in which he sings "I will kill your friends and family ... to remind you of my love". It's such a jovial tune, and I think it's really thought-proving that he says it's his love of which he's reminding them, as if England loves America and that's why they want them part of the Empire. So his "love" is really just ... colonialism. 

5. Repeating Motifs

Hamilton is full of repeated motifs that tie the whole thing together. Counting to ten (in English and French comes up in several songs, whether it's the countdown to a duel or Eliza teaching her son Philip to play piano), and "wait for it" vs "taking my shot" is repeated often to symbolise the Hamilton-Burr conflict. But my favourite motif is --

"Death doesn't discriminate, between the sinners and the saints, it takes and it takes and it takes" which is repeated with slight variations like replacing death with life or love. 

6. Colourful Side Characters

I'm going to count everyone except Burr and Hamilton as side characters just so I can discuss them here. Hamilton has tons of great side characters; my personal favourites are Lafayette, Angelica, Eliza, and Washington. Lafayette aka "America's favourite fighting Frenchman!" is incredibly stylish and raps fast, which I enjoyed. Oh, speaking of style - Jefferson in What'd I Miss just epitomises it. I love Angelica for her brains "I've been reading Common Sense by Thomas Paine - so men say that I'm intense or I'm insane - you want a revolution, I want a relevation, so listen to my declaration" and Eliza for her ballad (Burn) and the orphanage she set up and campaigns she ran late into her life e.g. against slavery. 

7. Theme of "Time"

Time is an important theme in Hamilton all the way through. From my favourite song (along with Burn and It's Quiet Uptown), Non-Stop, where Hamilton writes like he's "running out of time" to the very end, where Eliza ruminates that God "gives me what you always wanted, he gives me more time!"  and "I'm still not through, I ask myself what would you do if you had more time".

8. Revitalizing History

You'll all probably know that I detested History in school, but this makes it all about the people and makes them real and fascinating, in a way they just wouldn't be had I been reading about them on paper instead. Cabinet Battle 1 and Cabinet Battle 2 are great examples of this; the Founding Fathers thoroughly(ish) explain the issues they're debating ... through rap battles. This is from their debate on whether to get involved with the French revolution: "You must be outta your goddamn mind if you think, the President is gonna bring the nation to the brink, of meddling in the middle of a military mess a game of chess, where France is Queen and King-less. We signed a treaty with a King whose head is now in a basket, would you like to take it out and ask it? "Should we honor our Treaty, King Louis' Head?" "Do whatever you want, I'm super dead""

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So there you go: It's a hell of a lot of Hamilfun (blame that one on Chloe) and Lin-Manuel Miranda is a blessing on this earth. 





Thursday, 7 July 2016

Review: June 2016

Hi all! So, obviously there was one thing that absolutely dominated my June, and that was the Leaving Cert. The Leaving Cert is effectively the culmination of your entire second-level career so, y'know, pretty important. But there were also a few other things - I saw my bestie, took part in an international collaboration for high-ability students and went to Inspirefest!

EXAMS: I blogged about how I think the Leaving Cert went here, but overall I'm hopeful that I got the points I need (515). I really hope I got either that (Science at TCD) or my second choice (Science at UCD, 510), because I missed the change-of-mind deadline so now my 3rd choice is still Maynooth and I really don't want to commute that far. Anyway, it's just a waiting game now and I have to try not to regret moments of awful exam technique and avoid guessing what I got more than I already have. I think overall my performance reflected the work I put in, so hopefully the results agree! I'm going to write up a Leaving Cert tips post but I won't post it until after the results, just in case it all goes up in flames. The main point, though, is: keep the head. Don't get intimidated, just keep the head

Oh, also, in the first few days of June I totally burned out, and honestly I still haven't fully recovered and gotten my drive back. I really miss it - I never appreciated it until it was gone! But I'm soldiering on and hopefully the proper self-motivation will come back once I'm over the whole Leaving Cert thing.



CTYI/ECHA: I was absolutely delighted to be chosen a few months ago to represent CTYI in a European collaboration along with Gabi. In late June, I had a call (at 7 am! Timezones are awful) with people from the Czech Republic, California, Spain and others to talk about a virtual reality space that's happening and likely to be trialed on high-ability students from various talent centres around Europe. So that was pretty cool. 

BESTIE: I got to see my lovely bestie Ben for the first time in about three months, once we'd both finished our Leaving Certs. Such a great reunion. Pity he then immediately fecked off to Gran Canaria for two weeks!

INSPIREFEST: I've written three blog posts about Inspirefest 2016, so check those out here - Highlights
- the Speaker Experience
- Inspirefest's Winning Formula


Overall, as a month it wasn't particularly busy as in there weren't loads of little things I was running around doing all the time, which is because the Leaving Cert was so important it gave me an excuse to focus only on it. Finally, in terms of entertainment -

READING: Political analysis, stats and news on fivethirtyeight.com and politico.com
WATCHING: Stand-up comedy on Netflix - nothing like burnout to send you to Netflix for the first time. I especially enjoyed Bo Burnham's Make Happy, Michael McIntyre's Showtime and Ali Wong's Netflix special


Tuesday, 5 July 2016

Speaking at Inspirefest

On Friday 1st July, I spoke with three of my Outbox sisters, Vanessa Greene, Niamh Scanlon and Edel Browne, plus Outbox fairy godmother Mary Carty on the Future Leaders panel at Inspirefest chaired by Ann O' Dea. 

It was an amazing experience all round, from the moment I heard I'd been chosen as one of the Outbox representatives. Honestly, I think I just pestered Ann so much that she let me do it but I like to think it wasn't just that. Anyway, when Ann emailed to say I'd be on a panel with Vanessa and Edel (found out about Niamh later), I was excited because I was starting to wonder by that point if I'd get to go to Inspirefest at all!


I'd done a little bit of speaking before - the Soroptimists public speaking competition, work with the British Science Association's Youth Panel, a keynote at the World Youth Organisation's International Women's Day event and a Stemettes panel included. But I was particularly looking forward to this because I attended Inspirefest last year and really loved it. 

I'm not going to pretend I wasn't nervous - I'm a very anxious person so I was definitely nervous at points leading up to appearing on stage, even though it was just twenty minutes of chat in front of a few hundred people (I'm not sure how many, though I think Ann said in a podcast they were expecting two thousand people at the event). But I just put together some points on Outbox and what I'd been up to over the past year in case I got up there and suddenly forgot everything that's ever happened in my life. 



So, the first part of the speaker experience was noticing a lot of (optional) segregation between speakers/VIPs and attendees. We went in through different doors, had different areas to hang out in, ate different food, different areas of the auditorium ... We were spoiled! Isn't that weird, actually? For a ten/fifteen/twenty-minute keynote or panel, we got two whole days of royal treatment. I mean, I loved it, but you'd swear they were trying to give us/me impostor syndrome - who could possibly deserve all this? 

(On that point - I am so appreciative of the lovely hotel room Inspirefest HQ provided, and terribly sorry to have been a hassle about it.)

The VIP lounge was lovely; full of sofas, lovely view of Grand Canal Dock, buffet-style fancy food (although the pasta was cold and I refuse to accept "pasta salad" as a thing, hot pasta forever, plus I would've loved some chips or other food I could actually name). The best part, in my opinion, was the bar. The drink in glass bottles was kinda strange, but the hot chocolate was absolutely gorgeous. And I'd never seen hot chocolate made by swirling a cube of chocolate on a stick around hot milk before, so that was a cool novelty.

It was also good for chatting to people - I spent a lot of time hanging with the youth crew, but also got to have great chats with people like Liz Jackson, who is so cool. And Sinéad Burke, who kept insisting I made her feel old which is honestly ridiculous. Sinéad, on the off-chance you see this, you're awesome and admirable and in your goddamn 20s. You're a young person, deal



The volunteers were unbelievably helpful and generous and lovely, but it was a very strange experience because I felt like I should be cleaning up after everyone with them, not having them clean up after me! They were all great, but I have to give special shoutouts to the people at the doors of the VIP lounge who for some reason insisted on opening all doors for me before I could soil my delicate speaker hands on the wood, and to the SNP staff on the way to and in the green room and backstage. I appreciate the water you got me, for which I suddenly had a desperate need right after we left the green room! 

About the green room itself: oh man, that was cool. There was a classic mirror with lights all around it, a bathroom complete with shower, and then in the room beside it snacks and drinks and places to leave your stuff. Also, thanks to everyone who minded my stuff because frankly I carry an excessive amount of it around with me at all times. 
It was cool getting to hang in the green room with friends because knowing we were all in it together made things more relaxed. We could also make fun of each other (mostly Edel, for forgetting to mention that she'd literally won a goddamn car the previous day) and banter about stupid things we could say on stage (but didn't actually). 

All five of us who'd be appearing on stage around the same time (me, Edel, Vanessa, Niamh, Mary), accompanied by Claire (I want to make a rhyme here with extraordinaire...) went up together to get mic'd up and then wait backstage. Mary went on first and gave a brilliant and quite emotional talk about Outbox, then Niamh went on, and finally Edel, Vanessa and I went on along with Niamh and Mary and our panel began.

Like I said, I had been nervous for the panel, but there was no need. Even though we were being watched by hundreds of people, something about the design of the stage, being surrounded by friends (more Outbox execs filled the front row for moral support) and the atmosphere of the conference made it really comfortable, like we were just having a rather formal conversation. We talked a bit about ourselves, then about Outbox and its benefits, then about stuff like CoderDojo and BTYS and probably more things but I honestly can't remember them because after the first few minutes I seem to have gone into that stage state I always do where I can't remember anything that happens while I'm on stage. Oops. 

Fortunately, it did seem to have gone well, judging by the 60 (!) Twitter notifications I got over the next hour (how did they even get my Twitter handle?) and lovely comments from attendees and other people afterwards. Ann was such a good chair and so lovely when we got backstage too, so that was reassuring and I left delighted with it.


I was on a massive high for about an hour after the panel, and felt similarly to Vanessa about my lovely Outbox compadres. 

So to anyone who's considering speaking at anything even remotely similar to this, I'd definitely say go for it. Over the last few months, I've discovered that even though it's nerve-wracking, the high you can get from public speaking is definitely worth it. Why get into drugs when you can get your highs legally?

Some other benefits of speaking, as well as all the undeniably enjoyable compliments,  were the connections and increased investment in the conference. 

The thing with speaking is that people tend to come up to you. So you don't have to do all the work in seeking people out to talk to, and I got to have some really interesting conversations with possible collaborators and just generally cool people. Although there is at least one person who came up to me and I seem to have lost her contact details when I really wanted to follow up D: Also, the VIP area at the Fringe was excellent for talking to people. I remember someone on Twitter thanked me for providing a new phrase for networking, "building a community", but honestly I wouldn't call it a direct synonym for networking as I think that cheapens it. Building a community means genuinely creating a community of people who love and care for each other outside of the tangible benefits they can offer each other, and that's what we did at Outbox, CTYI, etc.

Secondly, being a speaker (almost by necessity) means that you'll have a greater personal investment and involvement in the conference, which I really like because this is such a great event. If I wasn't a speaker, I wouldn't have gone to the launch party or afterparty and wouldn't have paid such close attention to the whole event, so I would've missed out on a lot. So I think being a speaker really makes you care.

In summary: speaking at almost any event is a rewarding experience that I'd definitely recommend, but Inspirefest takes it up to 11. I had a really fantastic experience and was treated so well, so thanks to everyone. I feel like at this point I should particularly mention Outbox and our Stemettes, who made a lot of this possible. 








Monday, 4 July 2016

Inspirefest 2016: Highlights

Hi all! This will be the first of a few posts on Inspirefest. In this one, I'll generally summarise my favourite parts, then in later posts I'll talk more reflectively about the experience of being a speaker and the reasons I think Inspirefest has hit on a winning formula in my usual verbose way. 

Disclaimer 1: This will broadly be chronological but probably not perfectly.
Disclaimer 2: I've probably missed someone(s) whose talks I loved, plus unfortunately I didn't get to see some (like the Health ones and Karla, who were right after my panel). 

So! Onto the highlights.

#1: Speakers' Pre-Party/Networking in Teelings Distillery

This was cool because I went with Vanessa and we got to talk to a bunch of cool people like Anne Ravanona, plus we reunited with our fairy godmother Mary Carty!
#2: Brenda and John Romero

Brenda gave a keynote and then held a panel discussion with her husband John. Both are longtime game designers and honestly they're just so cool. Brenda gave an absolutely hilarious talk about female avatars in games, with ridiculous costumes and jiggle physics. She was definitely very daring with her slides, which kept everyone's attention. Then John came on and we learned about his background and that he still has a CD of the DOOM source code in his attic (he worked on DOOM, Quake and Wolfenstein 3D). 

(The woman who Tweeted that, Michelle Cullen, works at Accenture and I got to meet her for the first time at Inspirefest. She's lovely). 

#3: Sinéad Burke

Sinéad's talk was just fantastic, about the power of social media and reaching out to people and just having a go at things whether or not you think you'll succeed. I'd talked to Sinéad already on Twitter (and one day she randomly appeared in my school to give a talk, I couldn't believe my eyes) so this was awesome, and she has fantastic stage presence and confidence so she was fascinating to listen to. Plus that wiggle will go down in history. 
Dr. Sue Black's talk on saving Bletchley Park was also great, but I'd heard it before at Outbox so Sinéad takes the cake on this one. 

#4: Kara Swisher 

Kara was part of a panel and honestly she was just hilarious. She cut right through all the bullshit with everything she said and it was great. When asked how you'd get teenagers interested in the print edition of The Wall Street Journal she said "I think you should tape a joint to every page of the Wall Street Journal and then young people will read it". More quotes: "Like, I'm a hundred years old and I consume all the latest stuff", "Zuckerberg is like Murdoch but 48% less evil" and "For a long time I was obnoxious, but now I'm a genius." Definitely wouldn't want to be pitching to her without unbelievably thick skin though!

#5: Brexit and Donald Trump references

I just found this funny, to be honest. A significant proportion of the speakers got up on stage and said "Don't get me started on Brexit" or "Who here is scared of public speaking?" [some hands up] "Who here is scared of President Donald Trump?" [all hands up]. It was nice to know that we were generally on the same page!

#6: Kelly Hoey

Kelly was really cool and no-nonsense, plus (having talked to her on Twitter beforehand) she just seemed to be a really lovely person. 

#7: Noel Murphy

Noel showed us some of the amazing stuff Intel is doing with STEM (Science, Technology, Engineering, Art and Maths). An Intel collaboration that reinvented fireworks for the 21st century using drones with an orchestra playing on the ground absolutely took my breath away, it was mind-blowing. He also showed a really cool video of Intel technology being used for winter sports. 




#8: Alan Siegel

Alan Siegel is a world-class designer and gave this brilliant talk about the importance of clarity in design. It was fascinating, honestly. Mark Curtis of Fjord and Lorna Ross of Mayo Clinic were also excellent. Particularly enjoyed Lorna's shot of the Mayo Clinic's rooms looking almost the same like 70 years apart and her saying they're not very fond of change.

#9: Nuritas: Nora Khaldi

I really enjoyed this talk because of my interest in science, especially the part where she showed all the similarities between scientists and entrepreneurs, including self-motivation, working long hours, drive, competition, problem-solving.

#10: Our Future Leaders panel

This was amazing fun and I'm so privileged to have been invited to do it. Mary and Niamh's talks before us were brilliant, and we got very emotional when Niamh listed Vanessa and Catrina as role models for her. Then it was time for the much-anticipated (by me) panel. I really enjoyed it - Ann was a fantastic panel chair, it was a bunch of Outbox sisters chatting together who just happened to have microphones and an audience looking on, and we got lovely comments and goodie bags afterwards. I really love public speaking and I'm so glad I got the opportunity to do that here. I'll talk more about this bit in my next post but god I really love all my Outbox sisters and godmothers.




#11: The Fashion session

I definitely wasn't expecting this at a tech conference, but it fit nicely in the diversity and design element and was fascinating. Liz Jackson, with whom I'd chatted earlier for ages in the VIP room, gave a brilliant talk on how current aids for people with disabilities are "so ugly they're deadly". She also said that disability is an $8 trillion emerging market the size of China.


I also thought Carrie Hammer's Role Models not Runway Models talk was awesome. 


#12: The Fringe

The Fringe is such a cool idea for people to relax, unwind and network at their own pace. The VIP area was fantaaastic in terms of food and people to talk to, plus Ada.Ada.Ada, Lisa Hannigan and Wyvern Lingo were brilliant. We even got to go backstage with Wyvern Lingo, who supported Marina and the Diamonds and Hozier on tour, because Vanessa was interviewing them. Black Virgins are not for Hipsters also seemed excellent but unfortunately I only caught glimpses of it. 





I really loved the modular origami stand at the Family Fringe, and learned that I am very unskilled in comparison to a lot of people when trying (and eventually succeeding) to make a light-up LED badge.


#13: People

This could take up a whole post on its own, but in short it was brilliant getting to reunite with so many people or meet them off Twitter for the first time. People like Mags Amond, Laura, Christine Loscher, Melanie of Herstory, Anne Ravanona, Zoe Philpott, Liz Jackson, Sinéad Burke, Clodagh Connell, Darragh Doyle, Eithne Harley, Michelle Cullen, Ann O' Dea, Elaine Burke ... I could go on. (I've done a panel with two of these people before, can anyone say who?)



Not only those, but the volunteers were incredible: generous, helpful, competent and fun. The organisers made sure we were all comfortable and I really can't thank them enough.

Inspirefest 2016 was an absolutely fantastic event, and managed to surpass even the astronomical expectations set by Inspirefest 2015. Congratulations are definitely in order.